Reason I Hold Down

I joined your team, became a part of them, all the reasons go back to you.

Let go my position as a head of a section and let it be replaced with another person.

Just wanted to see you, running on that field, passing the sweating you a bottle, screaming your name, giving you a support, I let my pride got down, I acted like a crazy, I didn't care what people thought, cause I was just thinking bout you.

I got that award, gold medal was hanging on my neck, people cheered me.  But my eyes only on you.  It's all because of you.

Will you realize?

Please

Devil

I never thought that I'd fall for you

The devil inside me are my brain and heart
So, I can't think clearly nor do things wisely
Act like no one cares
Treat like no one with you
Speak like no one has ears

Oh
Maybe you are the one?
You are the devil
You are my distraction
You are the virus, attacks the wall and let it burn

I reach your hands and you drag me
Somewhere I know for absent
A place where is full of woes
It hurts me
But I don't give a fuck
I don't give a fuck cause my brain isn't working anymore
Same thing goes to my heart
My tact is under your control
Do whatever you want, Your Majesty

I crumple
I still don't care
I'm shattered
I still don't care

Thinking that I'm a bulletproof
But I can still feel the bruises which are gilding my body
I can still feel the pain in my chest
I can still feel the scent of blood in the air

Can I hate you?
You are an catastrophe
An awful blizzard in the desert





I love you

Down Low

Have you ever been feeling so down?

You are being so scared

In the steep fright stream, you never realize

You can't breath, the water sink you down

Your lungs feel like being torn 

You are dead

Have you ever been so high?

Really high, higher than everything

But, the higher you get, the higher risk you'll get

Wind of cockiness caresses your face, you never realize

Like a circus, teetering the flimsy rope

The higher you are, the higher possibility you'll break yourself

You are dead

Story : Falling Sparks

Dark the stars and dark the moon

Hush the night and the morning loom

The ruby ray shone the night sky
The cries of dragons filled the air
The sparks of sword flew, conveyed by the wind

Dark the ocean, dark the sky

Hush the dragon and the ocean tide

Ears those used to by the high squeal of sword
Mouth that couldn't stop spitting words of hatred
Saber on the right, scute on the left

Tell the horses and beat on your drum

Gone their masters, gone their sons

The warrior fought until there was no blood left
The sorcerers mumbled until their tongue stiff
The ladies cried until there were no voice could be heard

Tell the salt marsh and beat your drum

Gone their master, gone their sons

Blood dripped slowly, gone in the ocean
Stench of iron was covered by salt

Dark to light and light to dark

It was night and bright
Houses filled by fright
Son and daughter were in their mother arms
There is no difference between warm and harm

What brings us together is what pulls us apart

Gone our brother, gone our heart

And I know It was the end of tomorrow

Hush the whales and the ocean tide

Tell the salt marsh and beat your drums 

Gone their master, gone their son

They were telling the verity
Divinity were forgotten
Inearth the tears in dignity
Toils sine any burdens

Big Bang ALIVE Tour Concert in Jakarta~ ♥ ♥ ♥

WOHOOOOOO!
OH MY GOD! That night was like a dream comes true, It was fucking FANTASTIC BABY!
Well, at first me and my poopsmelled  lil sis went to Mata Elang International Stadium together, waited in the super duper crowded line together, ate together, and picked our nose together, oh forget bout that. I didn't have the holy CROWN STICK,so I bought that on the spot and It was pretty expensive but WORTH IT!

Me (right) and my lil sis (left) and EPIC CROWN STICK :")

Okay, I'll skip the boring thingies such as: The supercrazy fangirls in line, the curses of people, the fainting girls.  You know, the concert was REALLY KEWL but It was CHAOS.  I couldn't feel my feet trod on the concrete.  The fangirls and fanboys were really rough, they PULLED my hair, PUSHED me down, and the most important thing: I WAS SEPARATED FROM MY LIL SIS!! But, whatever, I still enjoyed the concert. LOL.

A thousand crown sticks illuminated the whole stadium, GO VIP!

T.O.P was rapping on sagway, LOL!

Seungri sang V.V.I.P, oh you are growing so fast,son :")

Yo Taeyang you are so damn hawt babeee!! 

Daesung's white wings in WINGS (y)

My extremely crazy husband, G-Dragon :*

and some random photos...

Puhlease Taeyang, stop stripping pleaaase *drolling*

They are just effing funny ROFL

Okaaaay, that's all.  I really do ENJOY the concert albeit this "mas mas" invaded my happines

I hate you "mas mas" with a tall body and looooooooong hand

Yes, look! yes ! That hand blocked my sight of my HANSUM GD!

LOLOLOL

TAKE MY HEART, TAKE MY SOUL BACK, BIGBANG!! ♥ ♥ ♥

NB: Sorry, for the rafferty fucking grammar asdfghjklxcvbnm I dont care LOL

Tired face of mine -__-

good night :)

FCK

" Byeee :) "
" Finally :D "
" I'm flyyyyiiing ;)) "
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For god sake
You can't hold your tears
But they're burdening your eyes, so the tears are falling down
Yeah, like your feelings

Those are not for you
Those sweet words

It annoys you
He has been high-jacking your mind
Ah FCK you hate this feeling
Really hate it

A friend of yours tells you
He is keeping some photos of a girl
Yeah, that pretty girl

A friends of yours tells you
He is texting her, romantically for sure
Yeah, that pretty girl

A friend of yours tells you
He is gonna be in a relationship with
Yeah, that pretty girl

FCK just FCK
He gave a hopeless hope for you
You know, you can't cry anymore
Your tears can't show your emotion anymore
It's more ironic than a sad story

There is no happy ending in your love life
No, there is no a single hope, a single happiness
NO JUST NO!




I really hate this
Love can turn into hate, right?

Fall, Broken, Pieces

In this hard situation
You need a courage
A little one is okay

Eight o' clock
You fell to your bed, and checked your phone
Nothing

Where was he?
Where was the text that he always gave to you?
You remembered the old times
When he always texted you, encouraged you

Decided to text him first
Fingers were trembling in jittery
Typing the text felt like dead
*typed* " *His Name* "

He doesn't want you

*cleared*

You should wait you thought
But, waiting was a worst decision
Cause...

He never texts you anymore

In a cold night, a piece of your heart fell
And it was broken, shattered
...

A night
You texted him first
He replied by calling you a wrong name
But you knew that name

It's a girl
A girl who has been loved by him for a long time
A girl who can freely text him with no doubt and hesitation
A girl who speaks better than an old friend
A girl who  is much more better than you

She is prettier, slimmer, smarter, nicer
And she is his type for sure
A quiet girl, she must be cute
Far from you
You are not attractive, far from cute,
dumbass! Hot body? No!
And you are TOO talkative, MEANWHILE...

She and he are quiet type
"They are a cute couple ", people said

FCK FR VRTHYNG

Hey you, a boy with a weird name
Why did you do that to me?
Gave a hopeless hope

Ah It's okay, everything's gonna be alright
:'D


I don't give a shit to my grammar, I'm screwed, so whatever