Reason I Hold Down

I joined your team, became a part of them, all the reasons go back to you.

Let go my position as a head of a section and let it be replaced with another person.

Just wanted to see you, running on that field, passing the sweating you a bottle, screaming your name, giving you a support, I let my pride got down, I acted like a crazy, I didn't care what people thought, cause I was just thinking bout you.

I got that award, gold medal was hanging on my neck, people cheered me.  But my eyes only on you.  It's all because of you.

Will you realize?

Please

Devil

I never thought that I'd fall for you

The devil inside me are my brain and heart
So, I can't think clearly nor do things wisely
Act like no one cares
Treat like no one with you
Speak like no one has ears

Oh
Maybe you are the one?
You are the devil
You are my distraction
You are the virus, attacks the wall and let it burn

I reach your hands and you drag me
Somewhere I know for absent
A place where is full of woes
It hurts me
But I don't give a fuck
I don't give a fuck cause my brain isn't working anymore
Same thing goes to my heart
My tact is under your control
Do whatever you want, Your Majesty

I crumple
I still don't care
I'm shattered
I still don't care

Thinking that I'm a bulletproof
But I can still feel the bruises which are gilding my body
I can still feel the pain in my chest
I can still feel the scent of blood in the air

Can I hate you?
You are an catastrophe
An awful blizzard in the desert





I love you

FCK

" Byeee :) "
" Finally :D "
" I'm flyyyyiiing ;)) "
" [{}] "

For god sake
You can't hold your tears
But they're burdening your eyes, so the tears are falling down
Yeah, like your feelings

Those are not for you
Those sweet words

It annoys you
He has been high-jacking your mind
Ah FCK you hate this feeling
Really hate it

A friend of yours tells you
He is keeping some photos of a girl
Yeah, that pretty girl

A friends of yours tells you
He is texting her, romantically for sure
Yeah, that pretty girl

A friend of yours tells you
He is gonna be in a relationship with
Yeah, that pretty girl

FCK just FCK
He gave a hopeless hope for you
You know, you can't cry anymore
Your tears can't show your emotion anymore
It's more ironic than a sad story

There is no happy ending in your love life
No, there is no a single hope, a single happiness
NO JUST NO!




I really hate this
Love can turn into hate, right?

Fall, Broken, Pieces

In this hard situation
You need a courage
A little one is okay

Eight o' clock
You fell to your bed, and checked your phone
Nothing

Where was he?
Where was the text that he always gave to you?
You remembered the old times
When he always texted you, encouraged you

Decided to text him first
Fingers were trembling in jittery
Typing the text felt like dead
*typed* " *His Name* "

He doesn't want you

*cleared*

You should wait you thought
But, waiting was a worst decision
Cause...

He never texts you anymore

In a cold night, a piece of your heart fell
And it was broken, shattered
...

A night
You texted him first
He replied by calling you a wrong name
But you knew that name

It's a girl
A girl who has been loved by him for a long time
A girl who can freely text him with no doubt and hesitation
A girl who speaks better than an old friend
A girl who  is much more better than you

She is prettier, slimmer, smarter, nicer
And she is his type for sure
A quiet girl, she must be cute
Far from you
You are not attractive, far from cute,
dumbass! Hot body? No!
And you are TOO talkative, MEANWHILE...

She and he are quiet type
"They are a cute couple ", people said

FCK FR VRTHYNG

Hey you, a boy with a weird name
Why did you do that to me?
Gave a hopeless hope

Ah It's okay, everything's gonna be alright
:'D


I don't give a shit to my grammar, I'm screwed, so whatever

Love is in The Air

2 weeks

It's not a long time at all
But, I love when you text me first
Everyday, I'm waiting
Holding the phone, worries are burdening my back
Hands sweating of anxiousness, it's really uncomfortable
I often wipe my hands on my shirt

Jolted!
My phone vibrates, the LED is blinking red
A smile carves my face
I love when you call my name on it
I love when you tell me you are sick
I love when you ask me for the cure
I love everything that you have told me

But
A tweet which is posted by you
A mellow one
Hey, who are you waiting for?
Are you liking anybody else?
I'm here for you, you don't have to worry

You text me first, yeah everyday
But, I'm always be the last one

Ah,it's frustrating
Love is sucks
>:(

It's a really short post and I hope you don't know anything about this

Fall and Love

A class
A team
A chat

Love is sucks, it makes you feel so weird, and now I'm stuck by that cursed thing.
Non stop fast-beating heart, cold sweat on your back, and two hours nail-biting.
You can't stop gazing and staring that sweet smile
His slender body
His wristband
His jacket
His backpack
All those things are not strange for you, you have already remembered them
He looks cool on bike, you really love it
But you hate it when a girl is on his bike
Jelly? Yeah of course
You hide your heartbroken face by a smile and a sweet good-bye for them

You text him, and he texts you back
There is an ear-to-ear smile hanging on your face
You are happy, for sure
Wondering, is he happy over there when he got your text?
'LOL'
It's the hardest thing you've got
Curious,
Is he bored?
or
He does really laugh and thinks you are funny

You pray every night,
hope he will text you first
You pray every night,
hope he will miss you
You pray every night,
hope he will smile at you

You are afraid, he is liking somebody else
You are afraid, he only thinks you as a normal friend
You are afraid being friendzoned by him

Hey boy, I'm in love with you so hard,extremely HARD!
Other sides, you are really an evil
You make my heart bursts every I think of you
You make my belly hurts without a reason
You make my mind blank, distracted, agitated
So mean, you are so mean!

My eyes feel heavy
Tears are crawling down my cheek
Hands are clenching so hard, I can feel the nails, making white crescents on my palms
Why am I crying for you?
Oh I'm just afraid and insecure
That you won't love me back
That you won't turn your head and smile at me
That you won't...ah just forget it

I don't want you to read it but I want you to know my feelings at the same way

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You, yes you! A boy with a really weird name!

I *cough LOVE YOU!

:)